To Travel or Not to Travel?

[vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]I’ve always been one to look forward to dreaming. My dreams are always crazy and unrealistic and ultimately make no sense whatsoever. And they were always different. Some themes overlapped here and there (like jumping into the air and flying away) but I never experienced the exact same event night after night.

Additionally, I’ve never ever been one to interpret a dream before. Mine are always all over the place, so unconnected to my real life that I never tried to decipher the meaning behind them.

That is, until 6 or 7 months ago when I started having the same dream every single night.

I think reoccurring dreams are a very strange phenomenon. How can your subconscious hold onto something so tightly and that consistently? How can it find something in your life so important, that it refuses to let up until you acknowledge it?

It took me a few months of having the dream to actually attempt to interpret it. Now the meaning behind it seems so obvious that I don’t know why it never came to me earlier.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]It always starts on a long windy road with small, run-down houses on the left. The road is back in the woods, nowhere near civilization. The houses are almost always empty and I’ve only ever been into one of them.

After I drive down the road, there are always 2 paths I can choose from. If I keep going straight up the narrow road, I will arrive on a large cliff. The cliff has a little shelf, perfect for someone to sit on and take in the views. What I always have loved about this dream is that the views off of the cliff are always completely different and breathtaking each time. There have been the rolling green hills of Ireland, rushing rapids from Virginia, the blue oceans of Greece, icy snow-capped mountains etc. Think of any natural spectacle and it’s been there.

[/vc_column_text][vc_row_inner][vc_column_inner width=”1/2″][vc_column_text][/vc_column_text][/vc_column_inner][vc_column_inner width=”1/2″][vc_column_text][/vc_column_text][/vc_column_inner][/vc_row_inner][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]But then I have another option.

If I didn’t follow the path up to the cliff, I would go right and be on the barren land of a large, white mansion where a family lives.

It is always the same family that lives there, though you might be surprised to find that it isn’t mine.

If I choose to take the house path, I will always go interact with the family, talk to them and ignore the fact that there is a cliff waiting for me with the sight of any country I can think of. I always had to pick one or the other. I couldn’t bring the family or individual members to the cliff with me.

I had a subconscious ultimatum that I always chose between and this was a nightly routine.

The way I interpreted this dream was this: I have two things I love in my life, travel and the people around me.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column width=”1/2″][vc_column_text]

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[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text][/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]By going off to travel the world, I felt that I had to choose one. When you’re traveling long term, you are missing birthdays, weddings, promotions. You are missing from the lives of everyone you care about. You are going in one direction and they are going in another.

And I don’t want to miss the big moments or lose the relationships I’ve spent years building.

This was one part of the dilemma.

The other part is the immense heartbreak I would feel if I didn’t leave. Not many people can relate to this feeling, this absolute need to leave your comfort zone, to see everything.

A lot of people love taking vacations and seeing new places, don’t get me wrong. But after 2 weeks, they are almost always ready to return back to their job, their bed, the stability of their home.

With every ounce of my being, I cannot be that way even if I tried.

I don’t think a lot of people take me seriously when I say that I’m moving to Southeast Asia when I graduate. First of all, Southeast Asia probably sounds like the randomest destination in the world and usually when people plan overseas travel, they typically go for the sophisticated cities of Europe.

I could write a one-woman show on why I want to go to Southeast Asia so badly and why you should to, but that is for another time (but if you want to ask me in person, I will gladly give a 2 hour long speech about it, just let me know).

Anyways, back to moving across the world: People don’t find that realistic, it doesn’t register in their brains how that is even a plausible course of action.

But if I didn’t do that, if I got a 9-5 job after I graduated college, if I made excuses and said, “Let me wait until I have more money, until I am older to go see the world,” I would be the biggest disappointment to myself.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text][/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]Everyone has a dream, an aspiration for the course of their lives. It doesn’t matter what it is, dreams are an innate part of a human’s personality.

But I know a lot of dreams are let go of for a multitude of reasons that I probably couldn’t even name if I tried.

And if those people are fine with it, then that is great.

But I know for me personally, if I were to release my aspirations, it would break my heart.

So I guess you can say the reoccurring dream made me question, to travel or not to travel?[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text][/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]Despite the inner dialogue I would go through, I didn’t want to have to choose.

I realized that the people in your life and your greatest aspirations shouldn’t be an ultimatum. You should be able to compromise the two and make it work.

When I go off to travel on my own, I will be leaving people, yes, that is inevitable. But you don’t leave them behind for good. They’ll join you in your endeavors, though maybe not as often as I would like.

I have so much motivation inside me to travel that I know I couldn’t let this dream go even if I tried. It makes me sad when I see others not have the same drive, the same confidence to pursue the things they want most.

I see the people around me and I know the things they aspire to do, the things they love more than anything and I just want to push them to go for it. But people are afraid, people care what other people think, I get it.

I’m truly grateful I’ve never been easily influenced by other’s or else I probably never would have started this blog or even have the nerve to talk about all these things that mean so much to me.

 

This post wasn’t meant to say, “Follow your dreams, kids and if you don’t, what the heck is wrong with you?!”

What I’m trying to say is, the things you want to pursue and the things that don’t fit with it, shouldn’t be a contest. You shouldn’t have to choose because if you want both things bad enough, you will find a way.

I’m learning that you have to take what you have and take what you want and make it work. It’s the only way.

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